Get lost then get Found

Ayumi rocks my socks.She has an amazing voice. Random..yes. I have been taking alot of sky pictures but since my time on the computer is going to be limited once school starts:Im trying to cram all of my computer fun time in a wee little time. School is coming fast and furious. It is coming with the strength of a great white shark going after a baby seal. And this shark is hungary man... you can see it in his eyes. ^_^ I hope you dont get lost in my metaphors. I hope you notice how I dont add drama in this journal:though Im pretty sure Im the only one who reads this. I like to look at my posts and think, wow, I actually like this part of myself. I like to write about good stuff; I have another journal that everyone knows about;where I bitch and complain how annoying they are or how my life is kinda lame. I get no remarks on those posts either ^^;; But I like this journal. This journal reminds me of my good times. I have been spending 0 time on my other journal because this one is better. I havent been hanging out with my friends or on aim because their drama has drivin me to insanity. I cannot stand going on aim anymore; I used to like it.... It will be the best day in my life to leave high school and leave this drama hectic life behind. They dont understand me. They know nothing about me. I feel like I put on this "everyone die" mask everytime I see them, because thats the way they are and I feel I have to be that way to and its wrong. Of course I didnt just figure this out. I talk to myself constantly my mind reels with thoughts, I talk to myself in third person, talking to my mask and talking to my passionate side.My friends dont know the bands I like, they dont know my favorite color, they think I like knives, they hardly ever see me, they dont know my emotions they think I trust them and so on and so forth, I am rambling I have started typing and now I feel like I cant stop. And because of that I am making grammer mistakes,spelling errors, which will drive me insane when I read this again after I post it. But I wont fix it cause Im lazy and cause I feel I have better things to do. I dont want to go to school, cause sometimes when I feel I get attached to people its hard to let go, and I just got used to letting go and I dont want to face them, nor do I want them to hate me. I do want some sort of friendship. But I dont want a big one, I want someone to help me through the whole school year. And the only one I can think of at the moment is my other self who is asking me right now "why are you typing this stuff?" Im typing this stuff cause no one will read it. But I promise, after this post, Im only posting awsome posts. Just like my previous posts.


-Cloud man

[I could write a book the one that satan shook]